Yeet!
It’s been a little while since my last update.
Life has really taken it out of me lately.
I realized yesterday at dinner that I hadn’t even shaved my legs in over a week. My hair’s getting a little unruly. I’ve been bouncing from one thing to another so fast that I can’t even keep up with myself.
Don’t get me wrong — I think this is a good thing. I like keeping busy. I like having projects. I like seeing friends and doing things!
But, man, doesn’t the world feel heavy right now?
I’ve been trying to avoid it by playing games, training lots and browsing memes that make me laugh.
But I’ve been stuck inside for the last week because the West is on fire, and the mountains here are on fire, and there’s a whole lot in this country of us who can’t tolerate all the ash and smoke in the air. I feel like I’ve been in my basement for the last week.
No, scratch that, I have been in my basement for a whole week.
From 8 a.m. to like 10 p.m. because I’m working from home too. Then I ride my bike or practice CXWORKS. I do sneak out to walk the dogs a little bit in the evening. I started a 10,000 steps a day for 30 days challenge and it’s been a test. Today is day 23.
Everything feels the same. Time creeps by both slow and fast.
This pandemic sucks.
And maybe it’s not even the pandemic, but just how poorly everyone is handling it. Our government is out of control, and false truths are flying left and right because leadership is dead right now. I just feel this impending doom of the economic collapse at my heels.
But wait, there’s more! Of course, the election year is amplifying this with making it all into some sort of popularity game. Popularity and doing the right thing often don’t go hand in hand.
And, well, doing the right thing and the government usually don’t go hand in hand either.
We had our shutdown earlier in the year and I really believed and hoped that we could all work together to make this worth it. But individualism trumped collective betterment and here we are. One person’s rights became more important than everyone’s rights.
Shops are closing up. People are losing jobs. At any moment, I imagine I could be next. And then what? I’d be just one illness away from debt that would paralyze my ability to thrive for the rest of my life. And that’s the reality for so many people in this country right now — I’m one of the fortunate ones.
Doesn’t that just crush you sometimes?
I’m trying to hard to believe in the good of people, but lately I feel like some of the darker sides have been taking over.
I think there’s a lot I can do to seek out the better side of humanity, though. So I’m gonna try.
I decided a good place to start is to start getting rid of spam. Anything that is up in my face right now is getting a solid yeet from my life. Starting today. Starting right now.
I’ve already deleted a lot of old accounts, cleaned out my inbox and blocked a crap ton of spam. I think next I’m going to start silencing things that I’m really just tired of seeing. Here’s to taking control of what filters through my screens.